It's just too hard lately. I barely sleep, and when I do, it's a 20 ish minute nap in the day. I can't keep living like this, it's killing me. I don't even know how to change it. It's all the same and it's draining me. Even if days are different, they all feel the same. Time doesn't mean anything anymore, and there's so much of it - too much time to overthink and to lose myself. It's too much time when you're alone and you know you always will be.